281 Our Father's Worth and Value

I woke up early this morning and could not go back to sleep. I had a stream of thoughts about our Father's worth and value and how it is contrary to mine. I realize my worth and value is not contrary but a tiny part of His Whole expression of life. I cannot understand with this finite mind I have His infinite life. My faith in His Nature being expressed through each of us I can in principle accept it. His worth and value is infinite, beyond human understanding. I cannot cause His worth or value to increase or decrease. By the way I judge His worth and value I react as if is as I believe. No wonder I need to be restored to sanity that is if I ever had any. I realize I cannot cause His unconditional love to be more or less but I act like it by making it conditional. I cannot please or displease You Father. I cannot earn Your grace or be bad enough to stop it. I say that I know, I believe in Your Omnipresence yet I make up illusions of separation. I say that I know, I believe that You are Omnipotence and yet experience powerlessness. I act at times as if it is up to me to do life alone and unaided. I say that I know, I believe that You are the all Knowing Presence within doing the works we call life and yet act and react unwise. I now ask that I am able store up treasures that You will for me, that You value, Father. Thy Love be done.